I'm goin let y'all in on something I have rarely shared with anyone in my life.

Man I can't even begin to explain what a blue funk I am in.

Sleep is so vital to a healthy mentality and sleep is something I haven't been getting......

Even when I go home and lay down I don't want to sleep.....

And the bitch of it is is that it's not like I have these obsurd thoughts running around in my head......

Well not all the time.....

Who wants to tell others that they are depressed all the time?

That killing themselves would be better living in this shell of exsistance that God has placed us in?

That hope is something that really doesn't exsist?

That only the mundane pursuits of life drum wearily on, beating us into submission, until all trace of hope, origionality, desire or belief in the greater good of man kind is nothing more but cynicism left sifting through your fingers like coarse sand escaping like the last trace of breath in your soul?

Who wants to know that?

Because that is me.....

Not all the time.....

But it's part of me.....

And I wish it was different.....

But it's not....

And so like always, I just work and work and work.....

Y'all be good to yourselves.....and to someone else. I will see you down the road.